A couple of months ago, this person, who is now committed, told me that he never loved me during our two-year relationship some four years ago. He even said that I was too gullible to believe the things he said, and that it was too easy to make a fool of me. He wanted me to believe that I was no good but a past time to him. I did not say a word. BUT, he wanted me to still be friends with his girlfriend. We didn’t talk after that.
This afternoon, he added me in FB, though it was evident that I deleted him from my friends list the moment we stopped being friends.
How can it be that he’s trying to reconnect with me now?
Then, this other person, who is also now committed, was able to talk to me again after we broke up seven months ago. Details, I will no longer share, because my first posts here were all about him.
I was actually dumb-founded when I realized it was really him I was talking to. I felt my heart race as if I had just run a 50-meter dash. I told my friend in YM that we should leave, because I could not take the feeling of helplessness anymore. He said that I should talk to him. So I did. It was so awkward…. and so hard for me to pretend that I don’t care.
A week after we broke up, we were still talking to each other, and obviously still in love, but barely being friends. He was already with someone else. Days after, I saw his pictures with his new girl. And I went mad, closing my YM ID, my FS, and my FB. I threw away the number we bought together. I went out of sight, out of word.
And now he started reminiscing of our times together, the stuffed toy, his sister, his room full of my handwritings. The point is, he says he misses me, he’s sorry, he wants to date me….
But he’s married… to a girl who’s carrying his child on her womb.
It broke my heart.